"And-- I love you both, so much."

There's relief in being able to say it aloud at last. There's pain and confusion in knowing how much she means it for the both of them.

"And I don't-- want to hurt either of you by--"

By choosing. By kissing one and not the other as she is now. By making it seem like she loves one more than the other when in reality they are both loved at equal, if somewhat different, levels.