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Apr. 20th, 2014 09:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theunpressuredclubIt's so different from the Deck.
The city in which Ophelia has helped her set up has nothing of the suffocating smallness that her home has. Nobody here knows entirely who she is except for the small handful of people the Queen had pointed her in the direction of-- and even they only really know her as a Diamond, not necessarily a Suit-switcher. It's refreshing.
It makes it tempting, almost, for her not to come back, regardless of whether or not she decides to raise the child growing inside her-- a decision she's still struggling to make, this far along. Because yes, while she knows the boy (and it's a boy. Edgar would be thrilled, in other circumstances) would remind her almost constantly of his father, she's also not certain if she doesn't want the reminder. She misses Edgar Eicheln, after all.
But missing him certainly does not mean expecting him to show up at the door of the apartment she's staying in. Thank goodness she looked through the peephole before opening it.
It's tempting to not respond to his knock. But she also knows just how resilient he can be if he thinks there's anything like a chance.
There's a crack in her voice as she calls through the door, "Please leave."
The city in which Ophelia has helped her set up has nothing of the suffocating smallness that her home has. Nobody here knows entirely who she is except for the small handful of people the Queen had pointed her in the direction of-- and even they only really know her as a Diamond, not necessarily a Suit-switcher. It's refreshing.
It makes it tempting, almost, for her not to come back, regardless of whether or not she decides to raise the child growing inside her-- a decision she's still struggling to make, this far along. Because yes, while she knows the boy (and it's a boy. Edgar would be thrilled, in other circumstances) would remind her almost constantly of his father, she's also not certain if she doesn't want the reminder. She misses Edgar Eicheln, after all.
But missing him certainly does not mean expecting him to show up at the door of the apartment she's staying in. Thank goodness she looked through the peephole before opening it.
It's tempting to not respond to his knock. But she also knows just how resilient he can be if he thinks there's anything like a chance.
There's a crack in her voice as she calls through the door, "Please leave."
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:11 pm (UTC)"For-- it's absolutely going t'be the same for me, too, Ed. I can't-- there can't be anyone else, f'r me, like this."
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:24 pm (UTC)His breath does come a little shaky as he nods, still leaning.
"So let's... let's make this work."
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:27 pm (UTC)"Yeah. Let's."
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:33 pm (UTC)"No more being alone." His nose bumps hers lightly, entirely carefully. "No more trying to move on."
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:46 pm (UTC)"I love you, Ed. That's-- never gonna change. And 'm not-- not gonna leave again."
She can't.
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Date: 2014-04-23 03:55 pm (UTC)"I love you."
Important to repeat. Important, in fact, to murmur over and over again while holding her hand tight in his own.
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Date: 2014-04-23 04:01 pm (UTC)Has to murmur her love back to him, staying close and clinging as long as she can. They've been too far apart for too long for her not to.